Ishq Hota Nahi Sabhi Ke Liye.......

Thoughts - How strange it is that our mind subconsciously associates somethings with some people and how quickly our thoughts wander off to some distant places and people when we hear or see something. The associations may seem strange to explain but I am sure everyone must have experienced it sometime though......

Like it happened to me a couple of days ago - On hearing the song "Ishq hota nahi sabhi ke liye......." In the blink of an eye, scenes from the past flashed in front of me... Dialing your number.. Your caller tune "Ishq hota nahi sabhi ke liye......."

You just knew what I was doing and how my mood was by my "Hello"... Tired, angry, crying, had a fight, frustrated, happy, sad, busy, at home, watching TV, studying........

Afraid of being hurt sooner or later due to the differences.. I restricted myself from talking to you in the beginning...You understood even this hesitance...... Assured you were there to take care of everything.. You got me talking.... And then talking to you was so comfortable.. No fake attempts to be true or prove my points. Even loved the arguments we had.

Long hours of talks... Discussing likes, dislikes, adventures of college life, friends, family, outings, favourite movies, songs, foodstuff.... And what not.....!!

Strange and yet felt so lovely to have someone with whom I could talk to and relate to so closely...!! How surprised I had been to discover the similarities between us..... Same thoughts, same likings, same attitude...... Was just hard to believe that someone so similar yet so different to me could exist...!!

But along with these similarities I knew there were differences..... The differences which would surface up someday no matter how hard we tried to get along smoothly.. Differences in our paths of life.. Our aims.... Responsibilities... And they did come up...

Self ego.... No talking.. Just "Why cant you understand...??"

"Why should I Understand.. Do you ever Understand me..???"

"You never call me.. Its I who has to always talk first..."

"I thought you must be busy.. So I Dint call you up..."

Excuses..Accusations...Explainations....

Even the last time you called me up... Never knew it would be your last call to me.. I did wait for your call for many days later.... But you dint call up..

Even today I sit and wonder why dint I call you up too?? Maybe ego.. Maybe a feeling that you dint want to talk to me anymore...... If you could... I could also do without talking to you.....

Tried every way of getting away from you.... Destroyed all physical things around me that reminded me of you...... Blocked all ways for you to get back in touch with me..... Even if you wished to.

But my mind and my thoughts betray me.... Even today when I get to know someone who is a Sagittarian.... The first image that comes in my mind is you.... The discussion we had on "Sagittarians being Flirty..."

When I see or hear about the movie "Hey Baby..." I remember how two years ago.. When you had been to watch the movie... And how I had troubled you by messaging you intentionally...... Just to distract you from the movie.. And how after the movie you said you dint remember a single scene prpoerly..........

Everytime I hear the song "Ishq hota nahi sabhi ke liye......."